(by Juan DeJesus and Edward Zeusgany, © copyright 2013, all rights reserved)

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Stevie

I wanted to give you pleasure. I wanted to give you pleasure hundreds of times.

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The Entirety

Let there be a space of three infinite dimensions.

Let all the fundamental particles be located in this space.

Let this be called an instance (i) of the entirety.

When one (or more than one) particle changes position, this is a successor instance of the entirety.

Let this be notated as i = +1, where i = 0 was the previous instance of the entirety and i = -1 was the instance previous to that. NB: only the present instance of the entirety (i = 0) exists.

Let the range of i be minus infinity to plus infinity. NB: i (instance) is similar to but not the same as the concept of t (time).

Thus i only moves forward and by single increments. EG: the entirety can go to i = 16 only from i = 15 and cannot go from i = 15 to i = 14.

Let the movement of any particle be caused only by its initial velocity and direction, its properties and the forces acting upon it. NB: under conditions of insufficient information the movement of a particle might seem to be random.

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Stevie

I wanted cuddle you in an intimate embrace, under a comforter perhaps. I wanted us to remain like that, unchanging and for eternity. You didn't.

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The Vision

One morning that same summer of 1959, a different boy told me that during the night he had a vision. I was the only one in camp who "might" understand, he said. That night he woke up needing to pee. Because our rustic cabins did not have toilets, he had to use the central facility. While on this mission he saw a file of people coming through a stand of tall pines. The first was Jack Kennedy lying down and with blood on his head. Lyndon Johnson followed, then Richard Nixon also lying down.

I asked him if Nixon also died in office. He said that perhaps he left office under a cloud.

I told him that I doubted that his dream foretold the future. Kennedy was not likely to get the nomination, if he did he wouldn't choose Johnson as his running mate. If Jack got the nomination he would probably lose to Nixon. If Dick lost that election it would be very improbable that he would receive the Republican nomination a second time and then go on to win.

It wasn't a dream, he insisted. It was a vision.

I asked him who was next. He said Gerald Ford was. I asked him where Ford was now. He said that Gerald was a little known congressman from Michigan. How did he know that, I inquired. He said that he asked someone in the procession.

I told him that while the forecast events were extremely unlikely, they could happen. Ford's becoming president would be the proof of the validity of the vision.

I asked him if there were more people in the line. They continued as far as the eye could see, he said. Is there a woman or a black in the group, I asked. He said first a black man and later a woman.

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Stevie

I might have been able to devote myself only to you, although I told you at the time that there were other boys. The one who had the vision was not one of them.

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Information

The direction and velocity of every fundamental particle (or grouping of particles such as those associated with an atom) are affected by the gravitational force of all other particles. Therefore, information about the gravitational force of all of the fundamental particles of the Entirety is available at the location of any one of the fundamental particles.

For a larger structure such as an atom or a human body, with triangulation, information about the location, mass, direction of movement, and velocity of all the fundamental particles of the Entirety is continuously available to all larger structures.

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Stevie

Because I didn't have confidence in the validity of the boy's vision, I neglected to ask him some important questions. What was the first thing he noticed when the vision began, i.e. did it develop slowly or was it there all of a sudden? Was there only moonlight to see by or was there a change in the lighting? How did the vision end, i.e. did it fade out or vanish in an instant?

At the beginning of the vision he must have been on his way to the toilet for the pines to be in front of him. As you will remember I'm sure, the land dips down where the central toilet is located, rises back from that gully and extends for about a 100 yards where it drops off rapidly to the river. In order for "as far as the eye could see" to make any since the procession must have seemed to come out of the horizon or the sky. I should have asked about that.

What did he do after the vision ended, i.e. did he calmly finish his errand? How long did the vision seem to last, i.e. how long did he have to hold his water?

Who did he ask about Gerald Ford? Were people other than future presidents in the procession and, if so, what seemed to be their functions? And of course, what were the names of the other future presidents of the United States?

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Seeing

A light source like the sun emits photons. Some of these are absorbed by objects while others are reflected. Eyes take in photons and transmit information such as the wave length of the photons to the brain. The brain presents useful information to us, e.g. the shape, color and distance of objects, in a form that we call seeing.

For rounded objects reflected photons are scattered, but our brains filter out the scatter. Infants don't see well until the brain learns what is useful and what isn't.

When we dream, our brains often present information in the same form as seeing. That is, we see while asleep and with our eyes closed.

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Stevie

I wish to suggest to you that it is reasonable to believe that our bodies have complete information about the Entirety and it can present this information to us in a useful form that is like seeing and hearing, i.e. a vision.

Visions seem to be very rare perhaps because our everyday lives don't have much use for them. Of course, it doesn't matter if the boy had a vision, a dream, a precognition or made it all up. It all came exactly true. By whatever means, he had correct information.

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Determinism

One of the most important theories of science, across all disciplines, is that there are causes for every event. The work of a scientist is to seek out these causes, to understand them and to make this knowledge available to others.

The demonstrated validity of the boy's vision is consistent with this theory and is an important lesson to be learned from it. That is, everything happens as it must.

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Stevie

That we understand very little about the causes of our actions, thoughts, and preferences does not establish that there are none. This ignorance of the causes of behavior results in many people thinking that they have "free will."

Obviously we have will, we act upon the environment. These actions are not random nor are they "free" of our genetic predisposition, prior experiences and current circumstances.

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A Precognition

I was in the auditorium at a state university in 1954, participating in a program for high school juniors. Some ideas about my own future entered my mind. I had the thought that I would become a professor at that university and that I would retire as an Associate Professor. I knew that this meant that my academic career would have been a failure. Although I would believe my work to be important, it would be ignored by my colleagues. I had the further conception that its value would be discovered and recognized long afterward.

It also occurred to me that I would forget these premonitions until they were reawakened many years later upon returning to this auditorium and noticing the unusual lighting devises. The high ceiling of this hall was fitted out with giant light bulbs. When I was again in this place and saw the light bulbs, then I would remember.

I did forget them, not returning to that campus for 15 years. During that time I had no thoughts nor any expectation that I would have a further relationship with that university. I never applied for a position, I was recruited.

Although I taught there for over 20 years, I had no occasion to visit that auditorium. After retirement I and my companion happened to attend a program of music in that hall. I saw the bulbs and remembered.

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Stevie

I have had several other valid precognitions. In literature, visions, precognitions and prophetic dreams are sometimes vague and most often allegorical, i.e. to require interpretation in order to understand the meaning. In contrast, the vision reported here and all of my precognitions and prophetic dreams have been specific and literal.

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A Prophetic Dream

The setting of the dream was a late medieval or renaissance room of the sort one might find in a castle. There was a group seven or eight people in modern dress sitting around a very large table. I said something to this group acknowledging that I was sexually attracted to teenage boys. Still in the dream, I said to myself that this was one dream that couldn't possibly come true. There could be no way that I would say anything like that and it was absurd that I would ever be in such a room.

About five years later, c. 1985, I attended a professional conference at a small private college. I was there to present a workshop on gay rights. The attendance was expected to be small and was given a location well away from the main venues. It was a reconstruction of a medieval or renaissance room, very dark and heavy seeming place with a huge fireplace and a stained glass window. It was when I made the very statement that I thought impossible, that I remembered the dream.

I have had several other prophetic dreams that were validated by later events. None of the prophetic dreams nor the precognitions can be considered wishful thinking. It was unwise to make the statement I uttered, I didn't want to have a mediocre academic career. As for the vision, at the time I wanted Nixon to win, not Kennedy or Johnson.

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Stevie

Astronomers call them black holes. When they look at their photographs of the sky they find empty spots, places where there is no light.

Astrophysicists call them massive black holes. Stars disappear into these places. They are torn apart as they approach. Measurements of the movements of stars close to the "hole" enable estimates to be made of its mass.

The "black hole" at the center of our galaxy is said to be a bit more than four million times the mass of the Sun. It might be better thought of as a black lump, there is no hole there.

There are more serious problems with the prevailing theory of the formation of the universe, that it sprang from nothing, that initially it inflated faster than the speed of light, that an unknown dark energy is causing it to accelerate in its expansion.

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Black Lumps

Let there be an infinity of black lumps in the Entirety and let them be in motion.

Let them move through the Entirety vacuuming up everything that comes close, sometimes merging with other black lumps.

On occasion let two black lumps of great size collide, each at a velocity near the speed of light.

Let the resulting crash produce results similar to those observed at CERN when protons are smashed together.

Let this be called a universe. Let it expand from the collision and be pulled apart by surrounding black lumps.

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Stevie

Nothing can be more powerful that the Entirety, anything else is a subset.

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Summation

1. Everything happens as it must. 2. Visions, precognitions and prophetic dreams are the result of a natural process combining the body's ability to collect information with the brain's ability to present it in a useful form. 3. The Entirety is all mighty.

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Stevie

It's been a long time since we were last together. I know you have a wonderful family and success in business and civic affairs.

Yes, I still love you.